Artistic inspiration, or just mere obsession?

I (somewhat) learned how to play the guitar. I'm getting used to it, it's hard, my fingers hurt like crazy, they don't always stay in the right place. I am also thinking about taking violin lessons, since I already have a violin. But also, I want to get a keyboard so I can resume my short-lived career in piano-playing. Yes, I can tell this is a rather big task. My reasoning behind it is that something is itching at me in the form of artistic oppression, and it wants out. I feel like there's something I need to uncover, some sort of talent maybe, or just creativity that is screaming to get out of me. I am a woman with a purpose and I intend to find a vehicle for it to present itself! Whether that is the guitar, the violin, the piano, painting, photography, more writing, singing.... haha who am I kidding?

Speaking about kidding, it seems that I spent my entire life kidding math professors about my actual abilities. I suck at it. I have to take the GRE's soon and there is a dreaded quantitative reasoning section! This section is gonna make my scores plummet like the economy!! I know that I am an intelligent person, maybe even above average, however my intelligence is in other fields like, sociology, literature, philosophy... Notice the patterns with words and thoughts? Now, numbers is something that I just do not grasp; it's almost as if I was incapable of learning that crap.
It's so beyond me that I think that in my past lives I was never human, and therefore never needed math, so now I have to deal with this bullshit that I do not need. Seriously, I have never needed to find X to figure out anything in my lifetime. I intend to keep it that way!
Now I need to fake-study. You know, when you go over things just so you can solve a couple of problems but in fact you're not really learning it? Yeah, it took me failing pre-calc twice to discover that math+me=disaster. My brain just doesn't grasp it. I'm sure that the left part of my brain that deals with math is just shut down. It went on strike, god knows what.

Screw math, it does not determine my level of reasoning or my achievement in academia! It does not! I am a perfectly (i)logical person whose worth or value is not determined by stupid little numbers or stupid fractions (don't get me started with the fractions!!).