Lately, I've been thinking about why things happen the way that they do. Not that I have anything to complain about. It's just that nowadays I'm left wondering what is it about life that makes you want to observe and appreciate it in all its glory? I came back from Spain, and I can't believe that I have to change my speech in order to adapt it to the current reality, the reality that tells me that it's been more than a year since I got there, even though it feels like it was yesterday. And I think about how long will I feel this way, when will the feeling of missing it ever go away?
I'm aware of the fact that I am not perfect, but I cannot be held accountable for things over which I have absolutely no control over. I've been thinking about people's purpose and what is it that they are meant for in life, and if I had to pick a purpose for my life I would have to say that it would be honesty. Yes, honesty. I will never shut my mouth if it involves me not standing up for what I believe in. I know that I am not perfect, and that a lot of times I end up stepping in my own pile of shit, but I can't shut up.
So I am obviously veering away from my initial point, but I feel that my actions have an effect even when my intentions do no entail for them to have one. When I rant and I criticize something that I don't agree with, I do it with the intention of letting things out of my system and, in a way, to teach a lesson. Right, who am I to teach a lesson? I have no need to cause any sort of unnecessary discord if the issue does not pertain to me somehow. Which is why I think that my purpose in life is to show people to be honest. To be honest with themselves, honest with others. Once you are honest you can finally be free, you know? People need to be honest with themselves, regardless of what that entails. One should not have to hide their feelings or their thoughts due to feeling that they should not be. It's as if I am a broken mirror that deflects the lies that others try to present me. It's broken because it shows some distortion, but that intentional distortion is meant to show a different angle, different perspective of your own self. She is right and wrong. I do know you more than you or anyone else ever will. But she's wrong by assuming that there is malice inside of me. You more than anyone should know this. I do not weave a maleficent plan to ruin people's lives. Quite the opposite, I unknowingly show people the things they do not want to see or choose to ignore. Most of the times that gets me in trouble, but you know what, I will take my chances. I don't believe in dishonesty, especially the dishonesty that pains people and causes so much unhappiness.
I can't even believe I am playing this game and replying to something I should not even be held accountable for. Because we are little kids and have to hide the fact that we communicate with each other without really doing so. Bullshit.
While I do agree that my act of criticism against what you may call freedom of speech could have been carried away, I do think that everyone is in their right to express their opinions. But when those opinions are expressed in a manner that seek to demean a concept or, worse, a person, then it deserves to be criticized and judged in return. Only then will the one who judges realize that their side is not the only one, and that the ignorance that they preach is invalid and out of place. I tend to play judge most of the time against those things that I disagree with, but it's only because I feel that you cannot criticize things in such a way that insults something and then blame it upon freedom of speech AND on top of that, expect for no one to say a word about it. So many things arise from that act alone that it feeds on anger, and then reciprocity (which is what I've done, you see how that caused my anger).
In the end, you cannot blame a tsunami in Asia by the flapping of a butterfly's wings in Brazil. Don't blame your unhappiness on my words, because we all know that the answer goes way beyond a stupid little blog about vampires.
Let's be real here, we are adults. Let's be honest.
lunedì 9 febbraio 2009
25 things
Rules: Once you’ve been tagged, you are supposed to write a note with 25 random things, facts, habits, or goals about you. At the end, choose 25 people to be tagged. You have to tag the person who tagged you. If I tagged you, it’s because I want to know more about you.
1. I miss Spain. I never thought I would feel this way about another country other than my own.
2. I feel like I have my future plans figured out, but before I settle down to have an adult life I feel like there are many things I need to explore. I'm not ready to give up on my youth just yet.
3. I cannot eat anything blue. I simply cannot, it repulses me to my very core. You name it, gum, candy, anything. I can't. Yuck.
4. I am allergic to shellfish, but even if I wasn't I don't think I would like it all that much. It just isn't my thing.
5. I live in South Jersey but I could care less about the Eagles. Seriously.
6. I wish I could sing, I actually don't think I sing that bad, but I wouldn't dare open my mouth and bust out a song. Maybe if I was marooned on an island, maybe.
7. I want a puppy SO bad, I cannot wait. I've realized that I won't be happy until I get one.
8. I don't know how to drive and I am afraid that if I wait any longer I will become fearful of the road.
9. I really enjoy writing. But I prefer to write in Spanish, things just flow more easily that way.
10. I tend to be resentful at times, and I will hold on to that resentment for an indefinite period of time. But I will let go eventually.
11. I am very forgiving, but I never forget.
12. I tend to analyze people in a split second. Before I open my mouth, I usually have a good idea of who I am dealing with.
13. Sometimes I think that I am not mentally wired for kids. After some time I just lose all my patience. All of it.
14. I usually decipher people quite accurately, but no one has been able to reciprocate.
15. I always want what I can't have. Unfortunately, when I do have it I lose interest in it, or them.
16. I need to watch "He's just not that into you". It was about time someone realized it was necessary!
17. I am discovering that learning new languages is something that I really enjoy, even if it gets horribly difficult, I find that I can teach myself the ropes quite easily.
18. I seek a deeper meaning to everything I encounter. I am constantly analyzing different things on different levels. Sometimes the explanation is logical, sometimes it is completely illogical, but it makes perfect sense.
19. I love jazz, and I think that the reason is because I feel that it's one of the few things I can relate to. If you want it to make sense, it won't, but once you allow it to flow freely and admire it as a whole, it is a beautiful thing.
20. I don't believe in soulmates. I used to, hence why I don't anymore.
21. I am very critical of myself, and to an extent, of others. Usually because I am aware of my own potential.
22. I truly think that one of the reasons why I want to move to NYC is because of Sex and the City. I know.
23. I can't stand people who use poor grammar in their papers. You are in college, you should really know better.
24. My favorite flowers are tulips. Any color, but particularly pink and yellow. :)
25. I always believe that everything has a purpose. In the end, things turn out the way they are supposed to. The universe works in mysterious ways.
1. I miss Spain. I never thought I would feel this way about another country other than my own.
2. I feel like I have my future plans figured out, but before I settle down to have an adult life I feel like there are many things I need to explore. I'm not ready to give up on my youth just yet.
3. I cannot eat anything blue. I simply cannot, it repulses me to my very core. You name it, gum, candy, anything. I can't. Yuck.
4. I am allergic to shellfish, but even if I wasn't I don't think I would like it all that much. It just isn't my thing.
5. I live in South Jersey but I could care less about the Eagles. Seriously.
6. I wish I could sing, I actually don't think I sing that bad, but I wouldn't dare open my mouth and bust out a song. Maybe if I was marooned on an island, maybe.
7. I want a puppy SO bad, I cannot wait. I've realized that I won't be happy until I get one.
8. I don't know how to drive and I am afraid that if I wait any longer I will become fearful of the road.
9. I really enjoy writing. But I prefer to write in Spanish, things just flow more easily that way.
10. I tend to be resentful at times, and I will hold on to that resentment for an indefinite period of time. But I will let go eventually.
11. I am very forgiving, but I never forget.
12. I tend to analyze people in a split second. Before I open my mouth, I usually have a good idea of who I am dealing with.
13. Sometimes I think that I am not mentally wired for kids. After some time I just lose all my patience. All of it.
14. I usually decipher people quite accurately, but no one has been able to reciprocate.
15. I always want what I can't have. Unfortunately, when I do have it I lose interest in it, or them.
16. I need to watch "He's just not that into you". It was about time someone realized it was necessary!
17. I am discovering that learning new languages is something that I really enjoy, even if it gets horribly difficult, I find that I can teach myself the ropes quite easily.
18. I seek a deeper meaning to everything I encounter. I am constantly analyzing different things on different levels. Sometimes the explanation is logical, sometimes it is completely illogical, but it makes perfect sense.
19. I love jazz, and I think that the reason is because I feel that it's one of the few things I can relate to. If you want it to make sense, it won't, but once you allow it to flow freely and admire it as a whole, it is a beautiful thing.
20. I don't believe in soulmates. I used to, hence why I don't anymore.
21. I am very critical of myself, and to an extent, of others. Usually because I am aware of my own potential.
22. I truly think that one of the reasons why I want to move to NYC is because of Sex and the City. I know.
23. I can't stand people who use poor grammar in their papers. You are in college, you should really know better.
24. My favorite flowers are tulips. Any color, but particularly pink and yellow. :)
25. I always believe that everything has a purpose. In the end, things turn out the way they are supposed to. The universe works in mysterious ways.
lunedì 2 febbraio 2009
O fucking K
if you have nothing to say, or you don't know a proper way to say it then, pardon my french, but shut the fuck up.
if you disagree with a concept, an idea, a thought, you are free to express your discontentment but do NOT judge.
I am more than sure that when everyone was young they had an obsession, hell, I was in love with the Backstreet Boys and would have died to wear anything with one of their faces printed on it. Nowadays there are different obsessions, like The Jonas Brothers, Miley Cyrus, Twilight, and many other things. Now, The Jonas Brothers, what can I say about three 15 year-olds that sing and jump up and down. I would've probably been head over heels if I was that age. No, they are not the next Beatles like a lot of fucking morons say, but they are doing their thing, making money at the expense of little girls' tears. Cool. Miley Cyrus, if it were up to me, she would be a mute by now. But I cannot criticize her, why? because I am not 16. I loved Britney when I was her age, now I listen to Tool. Yeah, you get my point. And Twilight, I can only reference the South Park episode that makes fun of the movie and the whole "vampire" concept. Honestly, I could care less about what little girls are raving about this Edward Cullen guy, I don't give a damn. But all these friggin losers that claim to be "vampires" getting pissed off about the movie and the book need to shut the fuck up. It is a FICTION book, the author was NOT writing about "real" vampires if there's even such a thing. People who randomly decided to look into "vampires" because someone told them a thing or two about them need to look at themselves in the mirror. Who the hell cares what religion she is. IT IS A FICTION BOOK. Learn to be respectful, there isn't such a thing as a "real" vampire, what the hell are you complaining about. Judging the author and her "ignorance" only highlights and expands your own. When will the world learn respect? I wonder, I fucking wonder.
People complaining about an idea being mutilated. Ok, where have these people been for the past two millenniums? Every single idea, once put forth stops belonging to their creator. Once that idea transforms itself into a coherent thought, then words, it seizes to be the creators' and becomes a source for everyone. EVERY single concept, christianity, judaism, paganism, all lifestyles at some point or another are taken and adapted for a particular purpose. Nothing belongs to anyone in this world. Stop complaining about that which was never yours to begin with. People are free to do with their thoughts as they wish. If they want to write a book about Jesus in a pony flying over the rainbow they can, and they should! I would totally read that. But anyway, stop complaining for crying out loud. What's funny is that the very people who complain about being misunderstood are the pure cause and result of all the hype. Please, when Bram Stoker first wrote the novel Dracula in 1897 everyone feared those who seemed to posses certain characteristics, and people started possessing these characteristics, on purpose! Hence, the very first episode of imitation of these "vampires". Why does all of the sudden people feel the need to establish a boundary between what is right and wrong in the "vampire" world. What is this? Give me a break. Yeah, I'm going to start making energy balls and taking pictures with bloody fangs, I guess that's what it means to be a vampire. Maybe that will give me the right to bitch and moan about some petty idiosyncratic movie. Go fuck yourself.
I know, you may think I am aggravated, or perhaps irritated. The truth is, THAT I AM!
if you disagree with a concept, an idea, a thought, you are free to express your discontentment but do NOT judge.
I am more than sure that when everyone was young they had an obsession, hell, I was in love with the Backstreet Boys and would have died to wear anything with one of their faces printed on it. Nowadays there are different obsessions, like The Jonas Brothers, Miley Cyrus, Twilight, and many other things. Now, The Jonas Brothers, what can I say about three 15 year-olds that sing and jump up and down. I would've probably been head over heels if I was that age. No, they are not the next Beatles like a lot of fucking morons say, but they are doing their thing, making money at the expense of little girls' tears. Cool. Miley Cyrus, if it were up to me, she would be a mute by now. But I cannot criticize her, why? because I am not 16. I loved Britney when I was her age, now I listen to Tool. Yeah, you get my point. And Twilight, I can only reference the South Park episode that makes fun of the movie and the whole "vampire" concept. Honestly, I could care less about what little girls are raving about this Edward Cullen guy, I don't give a damn. But all these friggin losers that claim to be "vampires" getting pissed off about the movie and the book need to shut the fuck up. It is a FICTION book, the author was NOT writing about "real" vampires if there's even such a thing. People who randomly decided to look into "vampires" because someone told them a thing or two about them need to look at themselves in the mirror. Who the hell cares what religion she is. IT IS A FICTION BOOK. Learn to be respectful, there isn't such a thing as a "real" vampire, what the hell are you complaining about. Judging the author and her "ignorance" only highlights and expands your own. When will the world learn respect? I wonder, I fucking wonder.
People complaining about an idea being mutilated. Ok, where have these people been for the past two millenniums? Every single idea, once put forth stops belonging to their creator. Once that idea transforms itself into a coherent thought, then words, it seizes to be the creators' and becomes a source for everyone. EVERY single concept, christianity, judaism, paganism, all lifestyles at some point or another are taken and adapted for a particular purpose. Nothing belongs to anyone in this world. Stop complaining about that which was never yours to begin with. People are free to do with their thoughts as they wish. If they want to write a book about Jesus in a pony flying over the rainbow they can, and they should! I would totally read that. But anyway, stop complaining for crying out loud. What's funny is that the very people who complain about being misunderstood are the pure cause and result of all the hype. Please, when Bram Stoker first wrote the novel Dracula in 1897 everyone feared those who seemed to posses certain characteristics, and people started possessing these characteristics, on purpose! Hence, the very first episode of imitation of these "vampires". Why does all of the sudden people feel the need to establish a boundary between what is right and wrong in the "vampire" world. What is this? Give me a break. Yeah, I'm going to start making energy balls and taking pictures with bloody fangs, I guess that's what it means to be a vampire. Maybe that will give me the right to bitch and moan about some petty idiosyncratic movie. Go fuck yourself.
I know, you may think I am aggravated, or perhaps irritated. The truth is, THAT I AM!
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